*Family picture thanks to Blue Lily!
Good morning! We’re waking up in Arizona this morning. It’s our 13th state visited on the Big Blue Bus Tour (not to mention 5 Canadian provinces!) We’ve been visiting my grandpa and my aunt who live in Yuma. This morning we’re headed up to Prescott for a newborn and family session, both of whom are good friends from Kodiak. I can’t wait to see them both.
Yesterday we spent the day in Algadones, Mexico – the border town on the other side of Yuma. Jacob couldn’t go though. He had to send his passport to SLC with his paperwork for his visa. No passport = no visit to Mexico. The whole day as I looked at my family I would remind myself that this is what we’ll look like in 2 months after Jacob has left on his mission to the Czech Republic. The hole that will create in our family will be massive. After spending the day pondering (mourning) that, I’ve decided to put it on a shelf until he leaves and just stay present in the here and now.
It’s been a week since we left Sacramento during which time we visited Yosemite (snow!), the bus broke down (new fuel lift pump!), drove across the desert (450 miles!), visited great grandpa and auntie Lynn (family is the best!), haggled with vendors in Mexico (lots of new trinkets we didn’t really need!), and got the back window of the bus fixed (hello light!!). I’d call that a productive week.
The next 12 days will find us in Prescott, San Diego, Tucson, and finally Houston! Whew!
I’m writing this as we cruise across the desert floor outside Yuma on our way to Prescott. We woke at 5am to be on the road by 6:30am. We didn’t bring the bus. It’s snowing in Prescott and the low temperatures are going to be in the mid-teens. Much too cold for the bus, so we’ll be staying in a hotel. The first hotel room since we stayed the night in Seattle before picking up the bus when we shipped it from Anchorage. I think we’ve decided to get a second hotel room. Alone time for Jake and I would be worth it.
The sun is rising over distant mountains and I’m feeling blessed to be on this journey. I think my mood is in direct proportion to the amount of sunlight I’m exposed to.Currently the sun is streaming directly into the window and filling my soul. My positive mood is also a result of a conversation Jake and I had last night. As we went to bed I was in tears. Jacob’s departure is approaching and we’ve been discussing – what next? The Big Blue Bus Tour was our plan for the six months before Jacob left on his mission. A time for us to head out together and spend time and have adventures. It was our plan while we waited for Jake’s job to start.
The way it’s looking we’ll probably have a couple months between Jacob leaving and Jake starting his new job. Although even that is up in the air. We’re waiting for everything to be finalized, but delays are bound to happen in the military and they definitely have in this case. And so we’ve been waiting, not so patiently in my case. I like to know.
So what do we do after Jacob leaves? We have had no plan for that time. Last night I was feeling particularly vulnerable as the unknown looms ahead. If you know me, you know I like a plan. It doesn’t matter if it changes (in fact it will probably change a dozen times before it is executed) but I have to know what the plan is. Last night as we lay in bed and I spilled my heart to Jake and we offered prayers to our Heavenly Father who knows us so well, we were able to find peace amid the unknown. We still don’t know what is going to happen, but we’ve come up with some ideas that we feel good about. Now I can put my whole heart and focus into these next couple months. I can stop worrying about what is ahead.
Because really, it’s in the Lord’s hands. He’s always been there. He always will. He won’t leave us alone, we only need ask.